I wish my rejections came in old-fashioned letter form, like in the good ol’ days, so I could make a papier mache sculpture representing my despair. Working with my hands always makes me feel better.
Haha, it’s okay, I’m not actually despairing right now, but I have my moments. I know how the publishing industry works, how long it takes even for the most talented writers, that even J.K. Rowling got rejections up to her eyeballs. I know all that, but I still wake up sometimes with a weight on my chest and think, “It’s not going to happen. It’s just not going to happen.”
What gives me hope is the small handful – like, VERY small handful, a child’s hand, or one of those malformed baby-hands that never grow with the rest of your body and just dangle off your shoulder uselessly – of nibbles that I’ve received. I recently got feedback from an agent who had SUPER NICE things to say. She saw potential and had glowing remarks about the writing and characters. This is awesome because it means I’m close. But she also pointed out problems that I’m not sure how to fix… I keep thinking and thinking about them, yet still I’m at a loss.
I’m thinking that once I hear back from the current round of agents I’ve submitted to, I’m going to put the book aside – TEMPORARILY, OKAY, temporarily. I’m not giving up on it – I love it too much. But I’m already overloaded with working on my second novel (which is almost done btw! That “almost done” status is taking forever because I’m at the most challenging part, but it’s ALMOST DONE!) So I don’t have it in me to thoroughly revise my first novel at the moment. What I think I’ll do is put it aside, focus on finishing and editing book 2, and then while I’m submitting that one I’ll see what I can do to improve book 1. Because there’s NO WAY I’m plunging into writing a whole third novel right after this, no way, no thank you, no siree bob. I LOVE book 2 but it’s a love that has kicked my butt and doing that all over again exhausts me just thinking about it! So that’ll be a good time to work on book 1 again.
In other news, and great news at that, two more of my short stories have been accepted for publication! They should be coming out soon. Huzzah!!
And now, back to the WIP. Er, in a minute. After I dust the window blinds… And iron my shoelaces… And alphabetize the cereal boxes… And…